There’s no big secret that I’m currently going through a divorce. My close friends know it, my family know’s it and most of my followers through social know it.
It’s not that I’m waving this flag trying to air my dirty laundry or to make a statement declaring my new found independence. When I share personal information about my life, it’s for one reason alone – to inspire others who may be going through something similar.
This season of life for me sucks and there’s no sugar coating it. Yes, I am blessed and I have an awesome support system of people who love me. But there are days where I honestly feel that if one more person tells me how “strong” I am or how much better things will get, I might just punch them in the face. ← actual conversation I had while venting to a close girl friend of mine who has always let me just be me.
I’m all for positivity and strength, (heck, Phoenix should probably be my middle name as many times as I’ve been able to rise from the ashes to rebuild myself) – but I too am human and I’m allowed to wallow in sadness from time to time.
All in all, I AM much happier given my circumstances, but if I’m honest there are also many days where it’s all an adjustment and it’s just freakin’ hard. To be all the things for two tiny humans is a huge responsibility to bare solely but when I do get a tiny break, all I can do is think about when they are coming home.
I miss my hugs.
I miss my kisses.
I even miss them calling out, “Mooooooommmmmyyyyyy” a gazillion times a day!
This month’s film is a homage to all that I feel when my girls are away from me. It’s hella difficult because the energy of my house just isn’t the same without them. I wanted to bottle up that feeling of sadness and the stark contrast of what happens when they return home. It is by far the best part of my weekend when I hear the doorbell ring and their energy comes flooding back inside.
Let’s keep this blog circle going. Please follow Jessica Pajimula of Samarie-Lei Photography to see her sixty-second video for March.